May First 2006
Journal Entry: Mon May 1, 2006, 12:24 PM
I have two weeks of school and one of a graduation practice. Graduation is on the 20th..
yay.
There isn't really much to say about anything right now except that i'm bored with my life and afraid to move on. I have an idea of what the future holds for me.... and that is me being held in a cell.
not looking forward to it. it makes me want to move everything i want to do in life up by 10 years so i dont lose hold of it. I want to have something to fight for.
right now i have nothing to live for in the real world. i work a fast food job and i'm not doing very good in school. i dont even know if i'm going to college.
i want to married and have kids and have a family but i'm afiraid that if i get locked up i'll lose my chances of that altogether... that no one will want me after that...
i need soemone who can take care of me.... and i wont mind taking care fo them.
THE FUTURE SCARES ME.... SOMEONE HELP ME
Devious Comments
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Without a thought I will see everything eternal,
forget that once we were just dust from heavens far.
As we were forged we shall return, perhaps some day.
I will remember us and wonder who we were.
i live about 10 blocks from darton...
i know a lot of people
--
Without a thought I will see everything eternal,
forget that once we were just dust from heavens far.
As we were forged we shall return, perhaps some day.
I will remember us and wonder who we were.
--
I wanted to tell you something as well. I realize you've been hurt. And while I can not stand drama and can make assuptions about what has happened, I feel some sorrow for your situation. What happened between us is in the past, and there it will always remain. Have we really recovered from what happened? I dun think we ever will. But that doesn't mean we can't move on. Ever time I see you around, I say hi. There is still a part of me that thinks it's as it was such a long time ago. But the facts remain. We grew apart. It happens with just about everyone. Human nature is what it's called. That doesn't mean I'm not cool with you. That doesn't mean we can't hang out, though we dun really do so.
If you wanted to hang out and I was free that day, I would be all for it. I have nothing against you, regardless of what I see and hear, regardless of what I do not see and hear. That's how it is. That's how it will always be. You must realize something, what happened with us, happened a long time ago. People grow up. I dun hold things against people and I do not judge them without reason. I'm very understandable, in most situations. And I realize that it's been a long time, maybe you've changed too.
So basically, the past is past. No matter what happened between us then... things are different now. And I can move this relationship in any direction you want me to, granted my time is really stretched out between school and I'm getting a job and other friends. But yea... I just wanted to let you know... Part of me still cares.
[Mr. Owl]
A photo of you
I took it that day we hung out and played with it some and it's all posted like now. We should hang out again. I'm not going to Localpalooza though. Not my style if you know what I mean. I just read your entry about the Warehouse. I didn't know that still happened.
[Mr. Owl]
[Mr. Owl]
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SJH
Always Question
Question Always
-Zel
A
-Zel
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I will teach you all that I have mastered
Fear. Pain. Hatred. Power.
This is the art of ruin.
and the camera died. boo.
how about you? Have a nice day of teh dead?
-Zel
Soooooooooo. I hear you and The Viking are going out now.
<giggles>
How cute! The Celtic Red and the Viking White!
Tehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe .
THough he dose have a red beard . . . .FORESHADOWING!
lolololololololololololololololololololo lololololololololololololololol
is it tuesday or sunday? I ahve no idea....
-Zel
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diane i am hot and i am cold and hard and swollen
^_^
--
I will teach you all that I have mastered
Fear. Pain. Hatred. Power.
This is the art of ruin.
-allison
and they were like >_<
and I was like Oh shit, and the chased me away.
but thats ok, ebncuase the pinp hamster rideign the afro crow came just in time and rained down his holy aafropimp light onto the chickens, turning them into tastty barbecue shicken wings.
oh yah.
-Zel
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When the remarkable turns Bizarre, reason turns Rancid.
-Zel
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I will teach you all that I have mastered
Fear. Pain. Hatred. Power.
This is the art of ruin.
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